biggie baggie

I have a thought on buying a new bag (wink wink)
Wow since when I update my blog twice a day ni? Nak try to meet kpi ke dah hujung2 tahun ni heee ..
Anyway, it’s the tab lah. This is really what we call ‘the world is in your fingertips’ wowww

OK back to buying the bag. Actually I’ve got many bags at home already, the sling bag, the big hobo bag, the glittering guess err.. OK just three bags, oh wait, another small partner-in-crime handbag that I keep in the car so that I can use it whenever I sneak out to Mid Valley during lunch hour. Even so, those are normal bags. I don’t have this REALLY expensive handbags u know. But am not talking about Prada or Chanel. Or even Hermes Birkin and whatnot. Ask the Big Mama for that. My REALLY expensive handbag is just tat brand C, the affordable expensive bag. I don’t know. I have the urge to own at least one, but still reluctant. I want to have one but feel guilty, thinking of how many Benjo shirts I can get with that amount or how many educational stuff or toys I can get for him instead.

Can I have that C?

Or just buy the usual brand Carlo Rino instead?

I don’t know, do I even need a new bag?

On a rainy day..

Am not feeling well. Have experienced this since last week. Not too well to do work but not too sick to beg for an MC. Cold, cough, sore throat and sengal-sengal the whole body, urgghh… memang sengal saya =)

I don’t know. All I want now is a good night sleep, undisturbed. But that seems not possible, even for one night. I would sit quietly on the bed when I woke up in the middle of the night nursing Benjo, reminiscing the good old days when I used to sleep 8 hours straight, sleep like a baby that is, not sleep WITH a baby like now…

This little monster really sleeps like a monster =) He spins around 180 degree and at some points during the nights we found him lying above our heads, cross the bed. Only God knows how he did that. We really concern about him falling off the bed that we stack some pillows fencing the bedding area. Sometimes Papa would crunch himself sleeping on a very small space as Benjo has conquered the bed. Yes, he is all over the place =)

There was one time, I took a day off from work, sending him off to the daycare and tried taking a nap in the morning. It was not exactly a nap, it was a heavenly sleep, and a good rest, and that when I woke up around 11 am I was so shock and cried crazily, Benjo! Benjo! thought that how on earth I can sleep so soundly? What happened to Benjo? Where is him? Is anything happen to him while I was asleep? Cos I merely unconscious.

Think I have already forgot how is it like to have an undisturbed good night sleep.

Nah, I just wanna take it easy. It’s an experience every mother would go through. Being a parent myself making me appreciate my parents more.

a come back

Think I gotta to go back to blogging. But where do I start?

I have been like this when September began.

Sometimes I wish I lived in 1920s, when all we care is only home and the kids.. when we are the Home Affair Minister, solely. Where I don’t have to drive like a crazy idiot every morning to work and worrying about my bad attendance record, worrying about the annual leave that is never enough, worrying about depleting stock of breastmilk, milk-expressing schedule..  But .. I guess it was so boring back then when we don’t have telly, internet, tablet, facebook, online shopping, Mid Valley.. oh no! Okay, I’d rather overwhelm myself with all these new portfolio of ministry, where I am the Menteri Wanita, Keluarga, Masyarakat, Kewangan, Kesihatan, Pendidikan, Sumber Asli, Pelancongan and for all that matters, as long I can have all these social needs, I would be okay. I think I’d be a better mom if I work.

But all this work-life balance thingy, when I have to juggle all at once, when all the balls are in the air, which one to drop first?

I don’t know. But certainly not my beloved Benjo, and Papa.

I’ll make sure everything will be taken care of, nicely in the air, even if I have to juggle with one foot, and standing on another!